Just one simple question: How's everyone doing? ♥


Hello my lovely readers!

Hiii everyone! It's been a slight while isn't it? Really sorry that I couldn't blog cause I was busy yet slacking! So right now, I shall blog! Yes the possibility of me blogging on a Monday is higher than any other day cause there's no school tomorrow. But yes there's work. I'm only working on Tuesday this week. As for the rest of the days, I'm gonna enjoy life with my babes! Going out to munch on delicious foodie and spend quality time studying for my up-coming PBF test!

I seriously thank God that I didn't take the course - Banking and Finance. Cause when I do PBF, which means Principles of Banking and Finance, it's already a killer! So I reckon I would just die in lessons. Thankful, I took Accounting and Finance! Which means, I only die half instead of full. I think I like crunching numbers and poking the calculator till they die and break. My favourite subjects are, SADLY, the subjects I sleep in. Such as Maths and POA. I don't mind Stats, it's just formulas and staring at the table full of numbers to get your FINAL answer, but it's pretty easy I reckon.

Right now, I suddenly have so many dreams, or rather - Things that I want to accomplish! Actually, I always have things that I would want to do, it's always the money and the time factor that is holding me back. But I shall find time! As for my dreams, it's either held back for JUST A WHILE, if not, I'm working bloody hard for it!

1. Going to London for a scholarship for LSE
Yes! This is now my number #1 dream! I was so inspired to leave Singapore to see the whole world! I told my dad about this! Actually I've been repeating this for so so so so so so many times! Cause I need to self-motivate myself. I want to see the world, to see places, to see new people, try new food! Also, along with my Olympus baby, I can take photos of the world! It's going to be difficult living alone but I'll manage. I hope more people from Singapore goes to LSE so we can stay together, saves cost so why not?

2. I want to open a Cafe/Bistro in Singapore - Somewhere
I know this would be a surprise to almost everyone! Cause I never told anyone about this dream of mine! I was inspired to open a Cafe while serving my cafe ministry this week! I enjoy serving people in this manner. Selling food and beverages and interacting with customers. I know now my own cooking and baking is terrible and I nearly set my kitchen on fire, again! Just recent about two weeks ago. I just stared blankly at the flame that was burning and then.. I called for my sister and got an earful. I need to be responsive! So yes I dreamt of opening a Cafe/Bistro! Gonna learn cooking soon too! And mixing mocktails! It's gonna be exciting! &i've decided to call my Bistro/Cafe - Somewhere. Cause I think it's pretty cool. Like people would ask you where you wanna go, and you reply, "Somewhere".

Well, so far, these are my long term dreams. As for short term, it's all those very simple ones. Owells! Anyway, I've decided, I'm going Regatta! It's at the Singapore River if I'm not wrong. Honestly, I am still too lousy cause I haven't bee heading back to training. But the funny thing is that when I go for training right, It turned out that my legs were the one that became more defined. Unbelievably, I can see my contours, yeah, i got sexayyyy legs! Anyway, I'll blog soon again! Takecare!


Ps; It's about those dreams that makes life sparkle. Cause you yourself will shine your best!

I was Enchanted to meet you ♥


Hello my lovely readers!

I know, I'm like blogging every alternative days now. It's not that I'm bored or anything. Maybe there's something inside of me that I want to get it off my chest, but I don't know how..? It's just so frustrating! But other than that, I kinda have a lot of things that I want to do. Can I just share here what is my dream? or maybe what are the things I want to try, no, the things I want to achieve, for a change, I want to achieve something in life to it's best.


(i) I want to do awesomely well in UOL &get a scholarship to London.
Yes I know it's a quite a shock? Cause honestly I have never thought of going overseas to study, never! I get homesick VERY easily and I sometimes still do cry at night cause I miss my family. But I reckon I would outgrow them. Let's just say, I want to leave Singapore for a change and go somewhere else, to see the world and meet other people. Don't get me wrong, i still love Singapore cause that's where all my families and friends are. But truly sometimes, I just want to run away.

(ii) I want a time trial of 200m which is lesser than 2 minutes.
Well, I had a time trial just not long ago. &cause it was my first time trial and I haven't been attending training for like super long. Like near 2 months? But wow, the first thing I did when I went back was to have a time trial. Not too cool man. But I was inspired and motivated to do really well. I didn't want to give up Dragonboat cause I really do enjoy all the times I had there. Be it rower or with the girls and guys. The time spent was always full of laughter. &I really love them lots, they inspired me to do my best and never give up.

It's really amazing when you learn something new from everything you do. Be it a renewal of lessons or learning something new altogether.

(iii) I want to be more than what I already am.
I'm sure most of the people who reads this blog already knows what happened to me, about my feelings for my ex. Just recently I know inside that I'm over him. Cause what else can I do, he's already attached. &I don't play nor do I do third party shit. I have pride. Amazingly, for my severely low self-esteem, I have quite a healthy size of ego. So.. I did what I do best, I suck the pain and learn lessons the hard ways.

Hardest = Most painful = Fastest

Well at least that was what I have learned from all these years. But there's bound to be a better way. Actually, let me elaborate, this method isn't, say, the worst method. The harder the pain, the spasm you feel in your heart will very quickly change your heart to numbness. Don't worry, the condition of your heart has nothing to do with how you feel. Anyway, the numbness will stay and it honestly allows you to at least do things in live. I had one painful incident two years back. Wow, that wasn't called living, that was literally a walking crying heart wrenching zombie. Every night you cry your eyeballs out from it's socket, everyday you wish, pray and hope for the same thing. The thought of whether is it worth it will definitely cross your mind. Don't bother, your mind can't think, anything at that point of time is worth it.

But yes, that was all over a long time ago. It's all gone in me now, yes I've let it go. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that. I am better than what I am. I am better than what my mind thinks of me, I aim to be a little better every single day. It's an achievement. Regardless of how small, you smile everyday, you don't lie, you don't keep secrets and you don't pity yourself and envy other people. All these are small achievements. &I am definitely better than that.

Alright, shall stop here must leave. Anyway, I've decided to get my camera this weekend instead of after Building Fund. I think it really motivates me to save EVERY single cent I have. Cause I am VERY BROKE. So.. I will curb. Anyway, love you readers, Ciao!


Ps; How many times will it take to get it right?

Major Craving since i-don't-know when! ♥


Hello my lovely readers!

Yes I know! It's such a rarity that I'm blogging now cause normally I wouldn't have the time. But there isn't school tomorrow so I thought I'll take some time off to blog. Anyway, guys, don't you think the weather these days are like SUEPR hot! For me, it's like so hot and stuffy. I don't understand why people would think it's cold, goodness I hope it starts raining now, honestly. Cause I'm perspiring. Oh, guess what, I'm listening to a VERY old song right now, Utada Hikaru - First Love.

Don't ask me why, I just thought of listening to it. It's still so good. Miss those old shows that they use to show on Saturday Afternoon Evening. Now, tsk tsk. But then again, I'm not even sure what they show. Surely is those repeated Taiwanese or Korean Series. Thank goodness I have no interest in such shows. No addictions so far!

Craving for Java Chips, real badly.

Anyway, let me tell you about my exciting weekend last week. On the 1st day of October, I had school. But I woke up late so I wanted to take the cab. Long story short, this is how it goes:

Overslept, Woke up late, rush everything, packed my bag, flagged cab for 30mins, flagged nothing, started raining suddenly, and even more suddenly a HEAVY downpour, ran to the busstop, fight with other passengers for taxi, want to move to other locations to flagged cab, busstop was full, can't board the bus. Then when I finally board the bus, I was too late for school. In the end, I didn't head to school. AGAIN. Yeap, awesome first day of the month.

But anyway, after that, I went to Woodlands Starbucks for a fix and studied my work, POA and Finance, while waiting for Buddy cause I was supposed to meet him! He went to meet his grandma with his mum first so I studied at Starbucks, I promise, I'm going there EVERY week before service. The place is really good. Sometimes it's packed with families having their breakfast, but thanks to my all-too-awesome Klipsch earphones, there were no crying sounds to be heard at all! Peace while I slurp my Java Chip, it was just oh-too-good. But the luxury has to end, cause Building Fund is here! Service was just too good. It's about Building Fund. You know, I love the sermons that Pastor How preached and also the Worship session with Pastor. It's like feeling heaven on Earth. It was just too awesome. I love the worship cause it sends messages and it sings STRAIGHT to my heart. Pastor How is awesome as ever, his sermons always left me thinking how much more I can be, how much more I can give in life. It changes my mindset for the good EVERY TIME! Thereafter, a quick dinner with the CG and it's off to studying with Maggie and Minyang. Studying with NUS students puts pressure on you trust me. Minyang just say a few words on Finance that I know I've been taught before but can't understand nor remember sends panic to me instantly! RUSH TO MUG, thereafter, Home sweet home! ♥

Sunday was pretty awesome as well! Waked up early in the morning for Operation General Meeting! Yes it was really good. I'm gonna be in Cafe and Choir and I am so excited to serve the ministry. I want to give my best to God in anyway possible. Had a short meeting with Cherie and rushed to Dragonboat with TCD! My goodness I seriously miss them alot! Especially the girls, Yanfen, Daphne, Dragon Mama and the rest. There're new girls too, Shan and Lydia, VERY AWESOME girls! It just makes training even better man! &I had lots of fun, from the time-trial to the jokes to the insult to the hardcore rowing. It was just too awesome! :) I love them and I definitely will be back for more!

But just one serious question: Regatta or no Regatta?

Today was pretty alright, overslept, but reached to school on time and slept in class. Thereafter, subway-ing with Christina and mugging alone at the library, Wow, it was really quiet that my music which was normal volume was like blasting! Then headed to Accounting class and had a SHOCK. MJ's hair is RED! She's not mary jane who already had red hair. &man she is so cool. Had a great chit-chat with Kleris MJ and Jane! Might try Muai Thai! &Kleris is interested in Dragonboat! NICEEEE! SO EXCITED! Hope everything pulls through and hope we get to be in same classes next year, shall really miss them! Hiak-hiak!

I saw something really happy today, twice. Not gonna share! Something to brighten up my day and makes Monday lessons so much more worth to attend. It's just a plus-factor! Anyway, time to rest. The weather is so hot! Or is it my thick hair that is making it warmer than ever! But whatever. I need to head to Art Friends ASAP. Need to get lots of stuffs! Alright, need to head off soon. Shall blog REAL soon! Takecare!


Ps; Just this week, Starbucks &last time shopping online! I need to curb my spendings!

You need to tell yourself, "Tomorrow will be better day ♥"


Hello my lovely readers!

You know, I actually wrote another post before this. But I don't know why, the page auto turned to something else. &my entire post was cut into where it was LAST saved. Therefore, it was like only one-fifth complete? I became so pek-chek that I deleted the entire post. That was around two days back. Now, when I'm trying to recall what did I write, I totally couldn't! The entire post was deleted from my blog and also from my mind! I am GG-fied now that I didn't know what to do!

But no worries, I have backup on what to write. Hiak-hiak! So today's Friday, the 30th of September. I tell you, the days fly pass VERY fast. Just a few days ago, I sincerely recall it was just the start of September! Time really really flies. But owells, I like fast-paced days. So, today. I have no work and no school. Rotting at home here blogging and getting ready for the BBQ later on! Super high! Cause it's with a CG mates! Hopefully everything would be alright! The planning and all was really a long-process but thank goodness there was Shixiang and Bernard that was helping one another! Hopefully everything would be successful!

There will be new friends coming today as well! There is really something very exciting about knowing new friends you know? It's more than an additional number or a higher number on your friends list on your facebook. It's about you entering and knowing someone else's life. Even if it's just for a few hours. or maybe you'll forget that person but I'm sure meeting one another isn't that easy. HAHAHAHA. In any case, what I meant was that I'm happy to know more people! Shall upload more stuffs about the BBQ when it's over! Can't wait!

Oh yes! School is being a killer these days. I'll be focusing alot on Maths these days. &I don't know why, I just kept doing Maths, cause Differentiation is a killer and it's so different from Olevels and Alevels. In Olevels you call it A-maths, in Alevels you call it H1 Maths, in Uni you just call it Maths. Like whattttt~? Finance is also another killer and the worse is still Econs! The only alright one so far is POA and Stats. Thank goodness I took POA before if not I would just cry.

Anyway I remembered what I wrote a few days ago! Wow, my memory isn't that bad at all. Still good, still new. So, I remember last week? Yeah it was last week was when I was feeling very emotional! Cause many many things happen? Well, it involves alot of feelings? Cause I don't understand why anyone would STILL want to lie to me. But when I think it back, I think it's only because that someone wanted to hide it away from me for my own good. Cause I was crying that time. So I reckon that person was just trying to help but somehow it all turned bad. But anyway, I'm thankful for everything you did. It made me feel so numb that I'm alright so soon. Like woah can?

I hope you're a better person now, I hope you'll learn to cherish and love your girl for the rest of your life. She is now, the most important girl you'll ever have. Don't ever hurt her like how you hurt me alright? Anyway, I just wanna say, I'm not angry with you. Honestly, I'm never angry with you. Maybe just pek-chek for awhile cause I was pretty used of all the treatment I get from you. BUT, what I'm trying to say is that you will always be my friend. Even though you have to hate me to become my friend, I'm okay with it. Cause I know someday, we'll meet and I'm sure, I'll greet you like one of my oldest friend that I'll ever love, as a friend of course. I wish you all the luck and love to carry on!

Alright that felt much better. I talked it out to someone before and I am so grateful to her. She's really awesome and I am so glad I met her! Hiak-hiak! Alright! I got lots to prepare for the BBQ later. Especially games. Hopefully, it'll be a successful one. Anyway, I need more desserts! I kinda need Max Berner Chocolate Cafe and Anderson's Ice-cream! Hee, yes! I've turn into a dessert extreme-lover! Shall blog about Foodie someday! See y'all soon. Takecare!


Ps; The cranes make it happy and somehow, it shows me how much better life could be.

I am so getting a camera soon! ♥


Hello my lovely readers!

'kay today's post might be a little short cause I'm actually in a rush to get ready for school. The weather today in the morning is absolutely awesome! Cause I get to snuggle in my bed! Well as for those who are gonna do outside activities today, I'll pray for the weather to be sunny later. Heh! I need to rush! Only 15 minutes more!

Well, as y'all can see from my above photo, yes I am going to get a camera soon! At least, I hope i'm able to get one, cause it's been out for so long and I wonder has the price fall. &I'm going to John 3:16 to get it. In case y'all didn't know, there's this camera shop at Funan The IT Mall that sells pretty affordable prices of cameras! I'm gonna go there as SOON as I get my pay for next month. Cause this month I'm going for mad shopping! Can't wait, need to relieve stress and change my entire wardrobe. Gonna throw away LOTS of clothes, okay maybe not throw, I'll wash and donate them away! Heh!

&NOOOO! I am not getting a Nikon or Canon. Sorry but those are TOO professional for me. I'm getting an Olympus Pen EL2. Yes I still remember the name, no references! My friend introduced me to this and after trying it out around 5 months back, I still can't forget it, but yes! I hope it's still available! AND CHEAPER! (yes I am a cheapo!)

Anyway, the main purpose of this post isn't about the camera, although it's partly to share my joy and excitement of it. I pray to God I will be able to let it last long long and not drop it. Clumsy me drops everything I touch - Butter fingers. HEH! Alright, the purpose of this post is to write about my priorities. These few days, well if you've read my tweets, I've been VERY emotional. Whether it's because of Miss P. I have no idea. But I'm mending right now. Not that I feel any better but I just can't get my mind off some stuffs. Been texting someone who is helping me right now and it kinda helps. I wanted to go ECP after school today but changed my mind and i'm going to work instead. HAHAHAHA.

Well, what I'm trying to say is that (gasp, 8 more minutes!), is that I am trying to prioritize my life now. I am going to focus and not let everything and everyone affect me. (I NEED TO BE MORE IMBAAAA!)

First on my list:

1. Definitely God - I haven't been seeking God at this lowest point in my life, I know it's like THE best way out but silly me was just washing my tears away all these while. I NEED TO FOCUS! I need to keep on asking God, seeking Him and praying. This point in time tells me that I need to really focus and not treat God as a oart of everything, cause God is everything and the rest is part of what God laid for me. Isn't it so?

2. Family - Haven't been spending enough time with them! Daddy's been really worried for me these days and he keeps trying to give me food to eat cause, I don't know, he MAGICALLY knows that I'm not been eating. But you can't blame me, I wasn't in the mood, my appetite failed me and food looks revolting to me. I saw food yesterday and I NEARLY puke out. Drank lots of water to keep in down. Sigh /: When will I be able to eat food again?

3. Definitely Studies - I've been neglecting them ALOT. But I will rush it up on this Sunday after my work! Honestly, I'm beginning to see what my parents have been saying - that I work too much, i give so much time in my work and I didn't study faithfully. I don't understand why too. But I'll be cutting down work too. Especially on these two weeks. Many events!

4. Friends - Okay,I AM GUILTY. I haven't been spending time organizing outings and meeting up with old friends and even my CG! *stab selfs!* VERY GUILTY. Not to mention my MI friends, Secondary school friends, Primary school friends, Outside friends and not to mention my BUDDY and BESTFRIENDS! I am guilty again cause I am biased to my Buddy. But seriously, Army takes up SOOOO much of his time! &he's GOING TO BRUNEI! *screams noooooo* &leaving me all alone in my very horrible status. Some buddy huh? But yes! Must meet up!

5. Work &Dragonboat - Okay I miss Dragonboating alot! Don't ask me why I don't dragonboat anymore, ask me if my work is taking up my time. YES IT IS! Gosh everyday when I use the computer I would stare at my paddle (which is right beside it) and my hands would itch. Don't get me wrong, I love both my work and Dragonboat too. But I need to PRIORITIZE! I miss my DB girls! I miss the water, the sun. I definitely miss my girls! &YES I AM GOING BACK next sunday! Cause this sunday have to work.. -.- Pray they don't take up so much of my time anymore. LOL.

Alright I MUST GO NOW! OMGOSH over-written by 6 minutes! Okay, I'm meeting Buddy this Sunday, and also someone special next Tuesday, can't wait! Remember, (if you're ever reading this or if you ever know what i'm writing - I always have, &I always will.) OKAY MUST RUN! TAKECARE Y'ALL.


Ps; NO I WILL NOT SKIP SCHOOL (although I am thinking of it)

Send me away with the words of a love song ♥


Hello my lovely readers!

Yes it's been a long long time since I last blog, almost two weeks. Sorry to leave this dead blog like this. The start of September was the starting mark of a hectic week. Especially last week. I thought I would literally suffocate and die cause of all the stuffs that I need to do. Assignments, tutorials, class, work! Of course I chose this lifestyle and I won't give up.

I can manage it, I just need more time to adjust myself to it.

&I really like this lifestyle! Cause it helps me know that I don't have enough time and not waste time with the times that I have! But at this stage still procrastinating a little. But when ever I know i no time I will stress. &I don't like stress! :( cause it would always cause me to forget how to breathe! &then I hyperventilate. Dumb isn't it? I knowwww. But it's like a habit since young. Breathing isn't a habit for me, I need to subconsciously tell myself to breathe.

Anyway, just a little update from me and what's happening around me:

- School, is turning slightly tougher every week. &it is so true that if you don't revise or reread your notes, you will not be able catch up. The toughest subject for me would most likely be Principles of Banking and Finance. It's a whole new topic for me. Although if you read, it's actually pretty simple. But you need to memorize alot of notes and it's sooooo easy to get mixed up cause everything that they are talking about is MONEY. &Banks. And all sorts of stuffs that I have no idea about. Thank goodness I didn't take Banking. Absolutely no understanding and interest in it. Please, Accounting, be different from Banking. &Finance, don't fail me!

- CCA, I joined a new Club, The Gastronomy Club! With Christina! Well, I know the name of the club has it's funny moments. I was tricked by Christina on what Gastronomy means. Shan't elaborate it here, too funny. But the club is about going around, eating different culture and appreciate the food. IT IS SUPER AWESOME! And we also have different events where we can host and learn new stuffs. It's actually awesome!

&I just realized that this year, my major areas in life is taken up by food aspect! Work, CCA and Church! (Cafe Ministry! Excited much!)

Actually, these are the things that has been taking up most of my time, unless you want to count working at Udders? Well, there's actually nothing much. I've actually been wondering whether I should cut down on my work load, but then I noticed, my work load is actually quite little already. Compared to the before I start school period, yeap, this was lesser but still. Wondering if I could cope or should I just wait and try to adjust. Well, the latter first! I don't want to give up so easily.

NOTE TO SELF: STOP COMPLAINING AND WHINING!

Hee, anyway, I got to go now. Need sleep, if not zombified for tomorrow. Always zombified actually, cause it's maths and we need to do so many other stuffs. Sigh :( &I just remembered.. OH NO GOT WORK! OHNOOOOOOOO~

Ps; smack computer down, and zoom-ed off! ♥

Goodbye August, Hello September! ♥


Hello my lovely readers!

Dearest September, please be awesome! Alright back to blogging again before I head off to finish my Maths homework. I honestly think I'm so being my studies, even though it's just week two. But I heard many people saying that you need to mug VERY hard and be consistent in your studies in order to maintain and do well. It's like Alevels all over again. Sigh /: BUT anyway, shall blog about something realllllly awesome which is: BMT - Basic Ministry Training!

Oh just to put some people mind at ease, the BMT I attended isn't the Army Basic Military Training. No that is too xiong for me. I guess recently my Army friends have increased as most of my Secondary School guys are attending their National Service now after their Poly life. The sudden loss of friends. Sad. But anyway, on Hari Raya, (oh, Selamat Hari Raya to all my malay friends!) woke up pretty early to attend BMT in Church. We had back to back sermons in the mornings and afternoon as well. Speakers are all our leaders who has been in church for the longest time, when Heart Of God just started! Hearing them speak our the how we can organize our life, the heart of serving the people in Church and in the House of God is just so amazing. Cause just by seeing and listening to them, you will be able to know, for definite sure that they love our church so so very much!

The love is contagious and I love my Church even more than before. But of course, the love is indescribable. And amazingly after a ten-hour God loving period of time in Church, we all still feel refreshed and energized! &also there's BMT homework. Honestly I think the whole experience is really amazing! &I shall Live, Learn, Lead and Love! It's two days after BMT and it's still so fresh in my mind. *Happygirl91* &now, to choose which Ministry that I can give my best and my fullest potential to! So hard cause there's so many to choose from. Heh!

Anyway, just to update! My work at Udders has been really awesome as well. I really love this job, even though it doesn't pay much but I think the job scope is easy and fun. &it's so flexible the working hours. But I am quite concern, cause I would have school, Church, CG, Work, CCA, (maybe) Ministry, and Dragonboat. Pack pack pack, I like! But it seems manageable still now. OHOH! Just an update! Udders would be having a new flavour which is the Peanut Butter Crunch! I tell you, absolute instant favourite flavour. I am a fan of Peanut Butter! So nice! And also, come buy pints at Udders too! It's the tub of ice-cream if you guys are wondering what is it.

I'm excited for September, a month without holidays! Are you guys on for it? Can't wait to LIVE my life! See you next time people! Takecare and stay close! ♥


Ps: My new bed at home is as hard as a rock! Can't sleep well! :((