I've always thought of how people think of me, it's almost impossible to think that you honestly don't give a damn on how people think of you. &when the nastiest comments are out, I daresay, that you would feel that they are actually hitting below your belts, and mine's.


I've been pretty busy with school &feeling disappointed with myself. Honestly, I've expected my Promo 1's grades to be utterly disgusting and how right i was, how true the marks were. Nonetheless, I felt extremely shameless to feel that it was damn right that I deserved those marks. Instead of feeling remorse, I actually didn't bothered and couldn't be cared. Double negative. Feeling moodless these days I say it's because of what-i-used-to-call-friends, studies &relationships. Ha, guess y'all be quite shocked to see that i'm actually talking about this relationship with Weichong.


I daresay that I feel that I've been treated quite unfairly, I daresay maybe I was the cause of all the problems, but why didn't you confront me? Instead of ignoring me, pretending that I don't exist, it's pretty obvious that you were extremely unwillingly to even say a simple Hi. I couldn't be bother since i've receiving glares, I simply ignore &pretend I don't know you. I acknowledge people who acknowledge me. You should know when you've changed &I would noticed, i'm not heartless, I feel for you. In any case, I know you won't feel anything at all but still, it was nice knowing you. :D


PS: I hate backstabbers, but then again..


My studies now, is utterly horrible, I need a studying partner, definitely not my boyfr cause I can't study with him, would just start staring him or just idle, trust me, it's VERY RISKY, we would just start watching movies &other stuffs. So yeah, not ideally. I'm bucking up like mad, trying to really cover up &catch up as much as I can. I'm trying to stop getting distracted &digress from all the happening situations. Home is also not a right place to study, I have plenty of distractions! Technology is evil. Therefore, i'm still trying to control myself. To have high self resistence and discipline. I seriously need to buck up.


PSS: Homework overloaded though..


'I wanted to write something for Boyfr, but I don't know where to start and how to say it all out, even I did, i'm just afraid I would cry while writing, I decide to skip it, i'm sorry!'


I'm trying to get as much stuffs off my chest cause I'm feeling low these days. Hard to mingle around, hard to talk to anyone. Maybe it's all in the mind, but everyone is acting like we've never met before, knowing each other by name &just merely smiling at one another. Sigh, this feels like an unfinished post that I don't intend to continue..


PSSS: The strangest thing, I don't feel liberated at all. ):