You hurt me, you hate me, now what?


Today's POA paper marks the end of the Promotional Exam 2. It also marks the start of my horrible awaitment of the results. I have this strong feeling that I might be advanced forward or worse, retained. I didn't put in much effort as I promised I would. &i'm at a lost now.

I wasn't feeling well since yesterday &this morning too. So I headed home, had slight cough + plently of pain all over. Fever comes &go, now it's finally gone after a good sleep. Not having dinner though. No appetite. Sigh. What's gone over me..?

Oh, today the school gave us mooncakes! Which wasn't alot either. But, speaking of mooncakes, the mooncake festival is coming soon. &I have to work on that day. Ha, in the morning followed by resting in the afternoon at home, then the evening &night belongs to my work again. Daddy ask me why am I working now, what about your studies? I totally blank out &faster change subjects. Now that my studies are dropping plus i'm always out. I'm doom.

Honestly, if I retained, i'm ending my life.
One way or another.

Oh yeah, shopping tomorrow with Ann + Kf + Weichong. Ha, it should be alright if my headaches go away now. Everything's gone, only this is staying with me. Sigh. Oh god. Bad day. Then again, I can't wait for tomorrow, lots to buy, esp a new bucket bag! Then pumps. Haha, see how, I also write what I want, in the end, i buy something else. Haha, Oh yeah, a new wallet too.

PS: The Secret - Julie Garwood.
PS: Honor's Splendor - Julie Garwood.
PS: Paradise - Judith McNaught.
PS: Tender Truimph - Judith McNaught.
PS: Once &Always - Judith McNaught.