You have no idea how badly, you're breaking my heart.


(: So as planned, I went out with my dearest cousin today. Hee. &We caught New Moon together with my cousin's friend, Marchel. :D I swear, that is the coolest name ever &it's not the restuarant that's at Vivo, it's pronounced in another way, Marsel. Still, it's awesome, heck no! She's awesome! (:

After the movie, we shopped. Okay correction, my cousin shopped. I swear her retail therapy is shocking me to the core &I pray that I will never follow her. Mygosh, her shopping is by dollars alright, but not tens, but hundreds. Okay I exaggerated. Ha, what I meant was that, $$ to her, is like nothing, she just gets what she wants. But I couldn't blame her, she earned all that $$. She's totally sweet! Gosh, have I said I love her yet? Hee! (:

I felt pampered too, cause they're both older but not old though. Sigh, I just don't understand why woman gets so upset with their age. They couldn't stop telling me that they're old. I was like o.- throughout. Ha! Marchel's like a mom. She's absolutely the sweetest. &i could talk anything with her! Just like my cousin. Hee.

Anyway, comments on the movie. I say 3.5/5? Actually the movie was fine, we all know that they can NEVER follow the book cause that would be way too long. So the plot and all was fine. The actors, other than Edward's kinda disappointing body, everything was okay as well. Haha! I was staring at Jacob &I was like zomg, his smile is megawatt-type! Totally charming, I couldn't stop smiling too. Anyway, after watching the movie, y'all would think that Bella's such a bitch. She tells Jacob she loves him, then next, tells him that he'll never win Edward. Hell she's totally breaking Jacob's heart!

Oh &guess what, I was laughing throughout the show. Haha, when my cousin was crying, I was laughing. -.- Oh well, I immune to all these love things. Heck I read the book! (: Anyway, there was this scene where Bella &Jacob was almost going to kiss, then there's this girl in the movie, she screamed! 'NOOOOOOOOOOO!' Heck, the whole atmosphere was destroyed, we couldn't stop laughing! Haha! :D

So we shopped, I didn't buy dresses, yet, so not me, anyway. (: But we all managed to get something except Marcel, nothing caught her eye. Headed to Lucky Plaza Pizza Hut, had my favourite Starrie Munchies! With plenty of ketchup too! (: &Pasta as usual. Chatted non-stop. :D It's been long since I talked that long. I just.. well. (:

Okay people, guess what, I slept at 2am this morning, &I woke up @ 430am. All these nights are killing me, &I can't go to sleep proper &for once, I got those dark circle under my eyes. It's scary. But there's nothing that I can do, is there?

(I'll never tell you my reasons to why I can't sleep. Why? Cause when you know what it is, you might not want to sleep either. All in all, you're why I can't sleep, the one I couldn't stop thinking of, till my eyes get wet, till they're too tired to cry anymore.I've been sleeping like this, since I came back, &I regret whatever I said, I wish I didn't come back at all..)

(I cried when you finally picked up my phone that night, although we talked till late that night, although I know you were so tired from camp, I don't care, I didn't want to put down the phone at all, I just wanna keep talking to you, even though I was crying most of the time, I don't wanna put down the phone, no matter how heart-breaking the conversation was, I didn't care, cause you don't know, how much I wanna hear your voice..)

PS: I don't want to lie anymore, to tell you that i'm fine when i'm not.