Day 2 w/o him - Nana fell ill.


Woke up this morning, ran to the toilet, to puke. Nana's sick today. Hot cold hot cold, she walked around her house with a jacket. Mild fever. Parents &sister left me at home all alone, told me they would reach home in 20mins, came back around 1hour later. I panicked, cause I was scared. Dislike being home alone.. I was worried that something happened too..

Hard to breathe. I saw something today that made a scar that once bleed so badly in my heart open, my heart screamed. There and there, I felt vulerable. Closed my eyes and told myself it'll go away. Opened my eyes, screamed again.

Haven't studied for Diploma test, fever, headache go away please.


PS: I miss it, when you go all the way out just to make me feel better, to make things easier, to accompany me to clinics all the time, to buy my medicine even it embarrasses you, to always magical make my pain go away, to be there for me cause you loved me so much..