Maybe all I needed, was more sunshine shining in my life.

So here I am, stuck at home. Probably in the middle of another family situation which I don't want to witness. Another incident that would make me cry again. Here we go, all over again. Great, my hand is trembling, I don't want this. Not now, not again.

I don't know why, why do they always have to make a scene. Have y'all ever wondered why I'm always out, why I never want to come home early. Cause I am sick &tired of all this drama that you people have to act out. Can't you people just cool off &talk it out nicely. I hate shoutings. (random fact: I'm scare of shouts &when I myself shout, when I'm scolding someone, I feel bad.)

&I will cry after that if it's too horrible.

The world will crumble all in a go, my family's in some sort of war everyday. My studies is dropping. My health is shite, cause

- My wrist seems to get worse
- I can't write properly
- I can't hold anything well
- I can't do anything without straining my hand
- My back is in pain &so is my neck

- My left elbow's muscle is strained
- My cough is getting worse
- My voice is turning sexy - Heck croacky

- &i'm getting a headache

So yeah. I'm feeling miserable. I thought today would be fine, cause I'm staying at home. You know what. I'm probably really a jinx. There are just too many happenings that doesn't seem conicidental to at all. I mean like seriously, when everything gets bad, you tend to blame everything on yourself. Or maybe it was because someone told you, you were like that. &if someone tried to reverse their words, you might not understand it at all?

(Someday, we should all try to change positions or change lives with one another, then maybe we would understand how everyone has lived their lives before commenting on our own life, before passing judgement to everything we do, to everyone around us.)