A life full of laughter ♥

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No more tears the next time I blog, be happy.

(okay, I paused here for about 20mins, not knowing how to start my post today).

You know, people used to say that it was all those little things in life that makes you happier. &I too, used to agree it to the max. Cause i'm a sensitive person, I noticed most of the tiny things that has happened around people i'm close with. If y'all ever see me stare, you might understand, cause I kinda always have something on my head. &cause my brain has this frigging fast speed to imagine, many things go through my mind. But still, it is simply adorable &extremely happy to see small little sweet things done, even if it's not for you.

So here are just some examples of sweet little things:

- The way they stare at you.
- The way they smile at you.
- The way they smile when they look at their handphone &it's your name.
- The way the first thing they did online was to check your blog.
- The way the first thing they think of when they wake up is you.
- The way the last thing they think of before sleeping is you.
- The way they kiss you on your forehead.
- The way they would just smile looking at your picture.
- The way that everything they did, they would think of you.
- The way they hold your hand and refuse to let go.

But now, i'm saying, i'm not going to care about those sweet little things anymore, cause they'll hurt me, a lot.

Probably cause they didn't know how those little things can affect me. But i'm really going to try to ignore it. Ohkay no, that's bull. I can't ignore it. I'm just gonna see it, act happy &get it over with. I can't really change how I lived for the past 18years can I?

It is hard to say things. For the past weeks, I was kinda emotional though I tried to keep it, it's impossible cause i'm like an open book, really easy to read and understand. So I'm really sorry to people that I have made unhappy with cause of my attitude. I did try. oh gosh, I am rambling on.. UGH!

But i can let y'all know one thing: I was really happy today, January 8, 2010. Honestly, for like, ah, a long period of time. I was really honest-to-goodness happy today. Smile like nuts, ate like a happy child or in chinese, a small flower cat, shopped like nuts &tried on many stuffs. Hee. I'm not gonna say what made me happy. Ask me. (:

(Thankyou, you-know-who. :D)

(But it is irony that on hearing the things I wanna hear the most in the entire world, I feel pain, hurt &feel like crying.. Why?)