Do you ever know the effect you have on me when you're standing near me?

I bet you don't know at all, that special effect you always have on me. Just by standing next to you, you make my heart race &when I see your face, I lost my breath. I admit, you aren't exactly the handsomest looking person on earth, but maybe cause it's you, cause I ♥ you, that explains all the weird reactions I had.

Today, I admit, I tried to avoid a little of you, but failed miserably after a while, or basically, the moment you pout. I swear I did try this time, but cause I totally lost my senses the moment I see you or when you lock eyes with me, I failed. Haha, it wasn't the most difficult challenge yet though, my over-imagination mind has kinda prepared me for many circumstances. Especially the day I had with you yesterday. Cleared so many things up.

Anyway, I got my that-thing-in-the-making materials already. Trying to make Honey Lemon Drink now, not sure how it'll come out. Just hope it'll taste all right. Been having ideas for many times but everything is like money money money. Sheesh. I WANT OUTING WITH STAGS♥ !

Sound happy? Good. Cause inside, it's all upside down.


Another question for you: Have you ever thought how I would feel, for doing everything that I have done for you, for everything I've been through just to get to you now?