Do you know how I am feeling right now? 

So I'm feeling extremely emotional now, &do you know how I am feeling right now? I doubted so. But I can't help myself for feeling this way, but it's not your fault at all, it would never be your fault. I'm really senseless right now. 

Anyway, it's finally the new year now. Operation Sneak Out wasn't exactly successful cause my mummy wants me back. But in the end, I also don't know what's going on. I'll most likely be in the worst case situation later on in the day. Seriously. I did this for you, for you're not here. I did this cause I want to get out of the house, to enjoy the new year with my Marshals &friends. It was awesome! 

I never drank that many cups of wine before. Ha. 

Oh well. I'm still awake now Waiting. &you know shit about it. I don't know what's going on. You off-ed my phone call too. But I don't blame you. Like honestly, I have no idea why I can't seem to blame you nor get angry with you. It's probably just me. It's always me anyway. Ugh. Dip, I'm not lying. Maybe I am really a jinx, to myself to a large extend. 

New year would be fine. Later would be hell. I totally feel like crying now but I'm not going to. Shall write about my resolutions the next time. Catch up with me, take me away.