(Woman, you're really the awesomest person in my life now. Seriously, I don't know why, you can read me like an open book &just wake me up with words. That's what i ♥ so much about you. Cause you really understand me. SADLY, YOU'RE LEAVING!)

Though it's impossible for you to read my blog, I still wanna say this: Thanks Jared, for saving me. :D

I can't seem to be able to follow my resolutions, saw woman's tag. I'm not healthy, i'm not happier yet &i'm still procrastinating. Sheesh. I woke up with a headache today, hurts like nuts ): I'm still trying to be happier. Actually, after having a talk with Redeye &Starfish yesterday. I majorly need to just RELAX. Honestly, everything is just because I am really tense now. Too uptight. But they all agree on something, it is unfair to me, too unfair.

School's starting tomorrow. I'm not ready for it. School's ending at 525. I'm not feeling happy about that. School homework not done, I'm not giving a damn about it. ARGH! Can I like honestly seriously don't go to school at all?! Sobs.

I can't stop being sad, I know I must be the most pathetic human being on earth now. But I couldn't stop being what I am. Maybe y'all will say in the near future you will forget about him, time will heal all. Actually time doesn't heal anything, that's kinda bull so people, don't listen to that. They say try to occupy your mind, how to find things to occupy it when it's already a full house with something else? How to stop the tears that just couldn't stop flowing out? How to stop yourself from feeling sad? Honestly.

I love him, I always did, I always will &I can't stop myself. Unable to, impossible too..


(Whatever I've written about not crying again is just bullshit okay? I can't stop it. I'm crying again. I'm trembling as I write this. Can you even understand how I feel..?)