A life full of laughter ♥

Sighs.

But you don't know that right? Or better yet, you acted it, so real, that you don't give a damn.

So right now, I believe that you can sense the tension &this is what I hate. It is that you don't care, you don't give a damn, you don't bother to even try to ease the tension. I am not going to deny it, I created these tension, but do you know what the damn fucking reason is that I somehow created it?

But you don't care right, you care more about yourself. You don't give a damn about me anymore isn't it? Do you know how I feel right now, even if I tell you, you wouldn't care &I can say this first, I didn't think it that way willingly.

You created this thinking into my brain. You said it with your own lips. I didn't make this up. Try, to just remember whatever you said to me.

It's not that I am so willing, it's not that I want to think this way, do you have any idea how it feels? Here's the dumbest thing that I just can't believe:

You told me to give you time to let go of her, I don't know how long you need, I don't know how long you need. But let's think of it this way, were you even trying to forget her. Or you're just leaving it like this? I ask you, everytime I see your phone, I see her name. I looked away, you starting sighing, don't deny, I am not deaf nor blind, I saw it, I heard it. I ask you now, WHAT ARE YOU SIGHING ABOUT?

I didn't do anything at all, all I think was to look away so I won't see your msg, is that wrong? I just didn't want to be rude. You're sighing cause you're stress up by me or what? Seriously I am fucking pissed off that everything I see it, you sigh &everytime I ask you why or what, you just shake your head, say it's nothing, and look away when you're bloody hell sighing away.

Major what the fuck.

Here is what I feel, I feel that you weren't even trying &she's lying to me again. Can you even understand what it is like to get lied to again &again. Ask her what she told me. &you lied too. I told you a long time ago, you will NEVER be able to forget her. You told me straight to the face, you said it so surely, you said: 'You're wrong.' I didn't imagine that, I heard it. I can give you all the time you need. Yes even all these. magically I still love you. It's not fake, i'm not imagining it, for everything I said I meant it I don't lie to you. But everytime I say I love you, I meant it more &I said it willingly. Unlike you.

&&I'm still waiting. It's been one month, I'm counting the days. It's not that you can't prove to me you've forget about her. It's just.. Oh what the heck nevermind.

&&&here's another thing you wanted to know: Everything i've written here, has nothing to do with why I cried last night &i have written else where where nobody knows but 2.