It has nothing to do with you, i promise, it's just me, alone, this time.

Hello my lovely readers!

It's been quite a while I think and I'm really sorry for being unable to blog these days. Mostly, it's because of the screwed up exams and my computer being all wrong but now it's fixed up. &lastly, it's just me.

The exams are finally over and sadly to say, i'm VERY disappointed in myself again. It's like a all over again kinda shit &honestly i am seriously tired about this. Honestly, I feel like crying out loud right now. Everyday I ask myself this question: Why can't you just be sensible for this bloody period of time till the end of the year and concentrate on the fucking Alevels. Yes, as vulgar as it might seem. It did pass through my mind. My mind and eyes are like fuctioning together right now and I deem myself insane :/

Sigh ): I faced the computer screen and my heart is like screaming at me to wake up. Yes I know that sounds incredibly stupid, what on earth has my heart has anything to do with my studies. Yes exactly, there is no connection. I am depressed. Ah fuck studies damnit.


"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE"

Yes that is what I want to shout out right now &so what if there are tears streaming down my eyes now. I don't want to care anymore. I just need someone to talk to, I just want to talk to you, yes especially you. But when would you be back, that I will never know. I hate you, I really do. I hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you!