&I always believe in second chances ♥

Hello my lovely readers!

Surprise surprise, I'm blogging again. I have no idea why, it's just that moody moody feeling which I am experiencing right now. As of now, it's being mild, but when it gets later into the night, around one am plus, it intensifies. I'm not making this up. I've been up till two am plus last night and I feel like a night owl when I am usually not. Anyway, I'll try my best to talk out what's bothering me so guys, just bear with me..?

I chance upon that photo above just now and way before I saw that photo, I said before - I believe it second chances. Cause I think everyone needs them cause nobody's perfect. Until I read what was written on that photo did I realise that there are many things and ways that second chances can be used. As you all know, I am feeling moody these days, whether it's from the family, friends, relationships or studies, this feeling is seriously acting up damn badly. In fact, it's making all my emotions haywired. I'm so short-tempered these days and I don't have the tolerance for some things anymore. Maybe I don't show it, but that doesn't mean I don't feel it. Please, don't let me tell you how I feel inside, and hear you say that you know it all along, or act like you acknowledged it, it doesn't help. Honestly, how did you even know?

Everybody's different, whatever that I'm feeling is definitely different from anyone else's. Cause nobody's the same. I'm not saying that nobody can understand me. What I am saying is don't treat whatever I'm saying or feeling so indifferently. If that's the case, why ask right? But I know it's weird to say all these, cause I myself don't talk about how I'm feeling anymore

Anyway, I think I will self-declare myself as being paranoid, craze and pathetic. It must be all those stress from the coming A's. I swear I have never felt this insecure (okay wait maybe I did) before. It keeps me up at nights and I always wake up randomly in the night at like four to five am. I seriously hate it. But I hate it even more when I wake up and find myself crying myself back to sleep.. ):

Oh and about second chances, I'll embrace any possiblity that it might bring and mean. I'm sure life would turn out fine, since somethings don't have anymore second chances, it's not about confidence or trust issues, I trust myself to work harder. But I'm not sure if that's really enough. I seriously don't. What if history repeats itself again? What would happen to me? But luckily from before, I learnt my lesson, I'm not going to let anyone influence me or let myself be (overly) dependent on anyone.

ON THE FLIPSIDE, I am starting to make some sort of progress for my studies. Esp for my Econs paper. I've been practicing it for two days and I hope there is some sort of improvement. -pray hard- Maybe it is time to meet Miss Arza (: Anyway, I'm off to finish up some essay and off to glee and hope to be able to sleep earlier tonight, wish me luck! :D


Ps: Don't act like you were always here for me, when you're not anymore.