I'm tired, I really am, so please stop asking what's wrong

Hello my lovely readers!

It's Boxing Day today. A year ago if you press on the Archives to Decemeber 2009, I asked myself the question of what is actually boxing day. One year later, which is now, I still have no idea what Boxing day means but to me, right now. It's just a normal sunday I think. Anyway, my long awaited Christmas has finally arrived. But sadly, Christmas this year wasn't very Christmasy to me. I have no idea why - I didn't enjoy Christmas this year I guess :(

Anyway, it's been eh, lemme see, almost 10 days that I last blogged so I'm here to revive this dead blog of mine - This is actually the first time I'm actually saying that I am reviving the blog. Sounds pretty weird! But anyway sorry guys for being unable to update my blog. I didn't have that blogger's feel to update. I swear I've been in and out of my blogger account, I've stared at the New Post page for many many times and when I finally start writing something, I immediately deleted it. Yeap I have no idea as well, so don't ask yeah? I have no explanation. Prolly it's just that I didn't have the mood to do anything..

Hmm.. Anyway, Christmas is already over and I'm waiting and wishing for the next Christmas to be an even better one! No presents to people this year, I've been stuck at home for I have no idea how long and I haven't applied for a job yet. Which is increasely more and more annoying. But I'm prolly most likely going to apply for a relief teacher on the advice of my cousin cause all you have to do is stare at kids and don't do anything much which I kinda don't mind. Only that I have no idea as to what to do. Ugh :/ I dislike doing nothing! Ugh I wish I could widen my working abilities so in the end, I've decided to just apply for most of the jobs. Cause yes I am in need of money. Who isn't anyway?

Anyway, this month, I have been kinda moody recently. I don't know whether it's the moodswings or that my period is coming - doom. I rather not talk, I rather not see anyone, I just rather don't do anything and get everyone to leave me alone so that I can cry pathetically to myself somewhere on this planet. I don't know why, maybe it's the emo season or it's just that it's one year ago from everything and having some post-sydrome or something. I feel fragile and I loathe it, honestly. I wanted to be someone else's knight in shining armor, not having everyone being my own own superhero. Please, don't ask me what's wrong.

Yeah I'm prolly being diffcult, talking in my rudest manners and being unreasonable to people out there and maybe even to Wc but seriously, my mind now is in it's own whatever leave me alone cause you won't understand anyway room. I know that some out there really cares for me and that my attitude like this is getting outta hand and I should seriously go see a doctor or something but I really don't care anymore. It would prolly piss y'all off when I say I don't know, I don't care, I don't everything. Sigh :// I am tired mentally, physically, emotionally and all the other -ly(s). But aren't we all?

I'll prolly write about something nice next time. Sorry all. &yes I am even tired of checking for any spelling or sentence structure mistakes. So if you have difficulty reading, my bad :/ Hope y'all had a better Christmas than I did! :D


Ps: Nothing would matter anymore cause I am not happy.