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Hello my lovely readers!

Yesh another recent post! These days I've got alot on my mind, or actually, the truth is that I had a lot on my mind yesterday and only yesterday which I feel like talking or writing it out here. Not that I wanna tell everyone that I have things on my mind and what it is, I just.. can't understand what to do, I just wish for guidance and answers and some advices as well.. Owells, just see how? Anyway, this is going to be one long post so people, READ ON!

Alright so I don't usually start a post on such a negative tone. Therefore I shall being with something I saw this very morning. My wonderful dad just told me I received a letter from SMU for open house which is one day after I've gotten back my A'level results - NERVOUS MUCH! Honestly I am afraid of it cause I know I didn't do expectedly will. Thou shall pray more often from now on! Anyway, I also receive this other leaflet on the new NTU Business School. I'm saying it's new cause I've never heard of it before. &My awesome dad wants me in the NTU Business school, my lovely mum wants me in NUS. &I want to be in SMU. But I know, I can never get into what I want, when have I been able to so far?

My parents have high expectations of me, and I really don't want to disappoint them. I didn't get to choose what I want, my schools, my wishes, my activities. For everything I've done, either one of them will object. Like for example - Dragonboat. My mum asked me to stop after my third training. She says it's so far and all the crap. My dad supports me though. &there's my ultimate regret of going dancing. Both of them forbids. Saying it's expensive and a waste of funds and time when I should be going other things like earning money from tuition which can help myself as well. Honestly I understand where they are coming from and that they mean well.

But I really wish to go with my wishes, from now on.

I promise to not disappoint them but just let me be. We'll all be happier, won't we? But anyway, I'm sure things will be fine and it'll work out, for twenty years it's been like this and I've survive. Someone will give in eventually.

Okay you know what, I'm not going to talk about yesterday, I rather just silence myself and keep it to me. But the bottom line is - I learnt a lot, I know a lot, I understand a lot, and I hurt a lot, I also had a lot of fun, I met up with a lot of old friends &I also had a lot of food. Yesterday night was pure awesome for me with them in the longest time!

Anyway, I have been having cravings every single day! No I am not pregnant but I just keep eating and eating. Like whatever smell that is appetitising and smells great, I would automatically go to find it and eat it. &If I don't get it, it becomes an ultimate craving. I've been craving for O-ah-mee-sua for almost everyday. It's sour cause I ask for more vingear and it's super nice! YES I AM REALLY NOT PREGNANT. But yeah. Munch munch, wallet got hole, tummy got hole - eat non-stop! Life is just so awesome! 'kay I'm craving for a Starbucks now - Java chips and Blueberry muffin! Yumms!


Ps: I ♥ the above photo's girl's fingernails!