I hardly ever look back anymore ♥


Hello my lovely readers!

Do you believe what I've just written above? About me seriously not looking back so much anymore. Everyday when I head to work and return from work, I realised I don't look back as much as I used to. &when I meant look back, it means literally looking behind me and everything behind me. But I find that trait a bit of a change to what I was last time. &my actions does show how I feel. It's a wonder that I'm showing it, cause I never talk about it, anymore.

Anyway, yesh I am finally blogging! I swear I don't know how many times have I logged in and out of my account. Started writing and in the end cancelled and deleted the entire entry. There's so many things inside of my mind that I can't say out nor do I wish to say it. It's just so retarded. I mean, do y'all ever have a moment where you don't know what you're thinking or what you're supposed to be thinking but you just don't have the damnest mood for anything. You just want the breeze upon your skin, the sound of calmness and peace through your ears and your eyes close shut to the world. That's prolly what I'm looking for, peace. It just seem so rare these days.

Wells, actually, the days pass by really quick, and in the blink of an eye, it's already mid March. Which is pretty awesome since my contract would be ending soon. Oh gosh I can't freaking wait cause I'm so bored with it! Anyway, my boss asked me yesterday whether I want to continue for another month of work. &I stared at her, speechless actually with my mind racing with thoughts. No seriously, my first thought was

'Why would you still want me?'

&then it went on and on and on, jumping from reasons to reasons and conclusions before another reason. &throughout my whole thoughts process, my boss was staring at me waiting for a reply. Needless to say she saw my face for the pass 3secs. &since I was born with a girl's mind that can over imagine ALOT, it would therefore take me milliseconds before I come up with a sound explanation to my face. Which awesomely, I counted, took me 1 sec to do so. I used the old - 'My school could be starting I not sure yet' reason. But she was persistent and insisted. But I said the same thing, then again, she was really understanding, so she said see how? &I was like sureeee. The topic was openly-left-closed.

Anyways, these days were pretty awesome and I kinda looked forward to each new day cause there's always something new. (Better yet, it's nearer to the end of my contract that's why) I thought of something new that I wanna try these days. &just today and yesterday. My mind kept thinking about one thing that I want to try or do. It's like becoming a want or something.

I want to attend a secretrial course!

Which means, I'm thinking of becoming a secretary. Like omgosh right? No honestly, I actually had had this thought since I was Secondary four. I mean, why not right? So after my current job, I might be going off for courses! Well, I will be heading off to many courses actually. Including driving and first aid! Yes, I truly wanna learn how to help someone in need instead of staring at someone's blood or crying out loud with them. Sigh, it would be beneficial to me anyway. Totally awesome. At least it's a life skill! &speaking of life skill. Maybe I would get my Gold for swimming and get a lifeguard license? HAHAHAHA.

Yes laugh all you want. There's so much to do, so little money and time. &what's more I got ♥ to accompany me. He's the best thing ever right now, besides my family, friends and God. But he knows his woth. Alright I got tons to do now so I better be off! Going to send my documents to SMU tomorrow and my application for all three universities would be complete. Oh and did I mention? If I get into any uni, regardless, I'm gonna cut my hair BANGS!


Ps: Let's take a quiet time now and pray for the people in Japan.