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Hello my lovely readers!

Surprise surprise I'm actually blogging again, cause I didn't head to work today. &as y'all might guess, it's because of Miss P. I swear I hate it. But, the funny thing is, what I felt wasn't only the unbearable pain but also the longing feeling. I miss those moments I guess? (Gosh I feel like crying so badly right now)

But I won't do that! Cause everyone is at home! I have a secret place though. Anyways, I've decided to be semi-honest with my blog and not only blog about most of the happy stuffs? But it actually isn't going to be easy. I won't really talk about anything that would make me cry cause I really can't? Honestly I rather just cry everything out even though I don't really like it. I learnt that I'm supposed to tell it upwards like leaders and God. I will tell God but give me time to be able to relate to my leaders? (Yuzhen if you're reading this, give me time?) I'm really sorry for being so weird and all. &Thanks for loving me!

So many things has happened, Miss P can only make my emotions even worse cause it causes moodswings in me. &I am in some much that I actually wished I fainted this morning. In the morning, I was in so much freaking pain that I actually thought that if I banged my head hard enough on the wall I could actually faint and forget about the pain. But in the end I think I did faint cause I unconsciencely fall asleep and woke up 20mins before work time. So.. Right now, the pain is like much better only still there which is seriously annoying.

But.. okay I shan't write it out yet? Cause I'm stil trying. It's better to hide all these. There's so many things that I can't even write out here but I shall tryyyy! I get to go now, chores to do even though. Maybe I should consider what Mr New says about writing about everything I feel onto paper and putting it into a box. In that way, it's like writing my feelings out to God? (like, Dearest God...) Awesome in some ways yeah? Anyway, toodles people!


Ps: The times I have the most to say are the times that I can't talk.
Pss: If I don't see a real life rainbow, would you draw one for me to make me feel better?