Is this going to be a need or a want? ♥


Hello my lovely readers!

Alright red alert! This post would be quite mixed up cause I am in a VERY mixed up state of mind now. Right now, I am feeling, happy, sad, ambitious, whiny, retarded, anxious, clueless and many more! It's just so ARGH you know. I'm sure most of the people know how I am feeling right? But! It's okay, I shall try to write this post in a orderly manner so that it's readable. Trust me, I wrote those that no one understands even myself and I end being .__. (is there even a term for that expression?)

So, happy. Wooyeah guys! I am OFFICIALLY a regular in my beloved HoGC, yes I have finished Followup! (Take that CYW) It's a very childish thing that Yuwei and I have cause he was actually competing with me on who's finishing FP first. Childish right? But it was quite enjoyable cause at least I know there is someone who is following up with me as well. Although it's with a different leader. Felt so good yesterday cause I shared out some stuffs with my leader! Ha, I told y'all someday I would be able to share out what's on my mind. It felt great! Also, guys! I'm starting to be overly ambitious with myself. A few days back, I wrote on twitter that I want to get a lot of things. It's on my wishlist to your left. &&&now! The dress above is something that I simply adore. Suddenly yes, suddenly, I have the urge to get such dresses. It's so nice! I know I prolly might not fit or suit that kind of dress but I just think it's so awesome! So should I get the dress? .__.

So, sad. I am missing my buddies and bestfriends right now. Jordin, Ryan New, Chrissy, Dannikins. All four of this lovely mad-fabulous people are actually OVERSEAS without me! Like what is this supposed to mean right? They just PS me in Singapore all by myself and the only way of communication is either texting, email or twitter and facebook. Like so unhappy can? But I hope they are enjoying themselves at their own destinations now. Another saddening issue is that I signed up for BTT and all but my parents aren't really happy cause they say a lot of rubbish which made me extremely hurt. I think they are extremely smart. Especially my mum. I tell you, wow. She is amazing. When she scolds me right, or when she wants to make me feel sad, angry, guilty anyone of these. She wouldn't say directly about me. She would bring my friends and ESPECIALLY my dad to make me feel sad. Things like why are you making your dad so worried and you shouldn't hang out with your friends and I forbid you to do so.

She totally changed my mood from 80% happy to 30% happy. Amazing isn't she?

Anyway, I shall just try to please my parents and all and do all I am supposed to by today. Tomorrow marks the first lesson of my BTT and I shall be heading down to BBDC to attend it. My parents were super furious that I'm wasting money on attending it cause it isn't even needed. Well I didn't know that and I went to spend a bomb on it and they think I'm dumb and stupid. Awesome way to get greeted in the morning. But owells. I PAID FOR IT. So should I pain more than y'all? Sigh. Yes I know, I am dumb. Thankyouverymuch if you think that way as well. Grrrr.. &I'm thinking of working at Udder's! Cause I had Udders yesterday and i hope I can work there cause I have to find a part time job now so why not? LOL. Shall ask at the outlet at Westmall tomorrow since it's so nearby.

Many things to do and I hope the day will pass by ever so quickly. Honestly, I am actually very worried about my applications and appeals for University. Hope I can stop disappointing my family, especially my dad. Sigh /: Alright I shall end here? Shall blog soon again. Anyway, if you have anything to comment do click on the comment box below cause I honestly have no idea who reads this blog, LOL.


Ps: I am officially addicted to Fuckin Perfect by Pink! Oh-so-good!