Sigh honestly, having this grastic flu isn't as bad as everyone thinks it is. The only good thing about it is that it prevents me from eating. Which in turn means saving money and also not gaining excess weight. Yes my weight really fluctuates. But it is still an illness which yes needs medication, but I don't take them. I dislike medicines. Anyway, there's prolly no breakfast and lunch for today. Save ka-ching!

Anyway, yesterday I had a wonderful day celebrating my birthday! I just want to give a big shout out to all those who took the time to wish me a happy birthday, whether it's on facebook, twitter, text messages, calls or best to meet me and celebrate with me. Just want to say it was mad awesome and that I enjoyed it to the fullest! ♥ In the early morning, honestly, I wasn't feeling well.. Weichong and I had a talk the night before and I was utterly shocked to hear his voice that I honestly couldn't believe it was him. &before we could finish speaking ten sentences to each other, I started crying.

We talked for almost an hour and half before I told myself to put down the phone cause he has work to do. &little did I realize that my hands were shaking and how heavy my heart has become. &I fell asleep just like that without replying an important mail. Woke up and all the memories of the day before and everything just came smashing to me. &I woke up crying again. On 13th June, I suddenly had alot of memories about him, suddenly, honestly suddenly I kept thinking about him and everything he has done, the good and bad and it made me all insane. Then when he called me in the night, well, y'all can guess what happened la. The whole emotional thing just went on a whole new level..

&As much as I had cry, it's not fully out yet. I should have cried all out, from the day we broke up, I should have cried all out. But I told myself on that very night, that it was me that asked for a breakup and that I had no right to cry over it. I pretended strong, I pretended ignorant. But little did I know that I should have cried all out and forget about it. It is all too late. So I went to listen to worship songs - Above All Else. It calmed down but it didn't diminish the heaviness in my heart. Well I'm writing this all out, hoping it'll calm me down. Seems to be working. Last night we chatted again and it was so much better. I DIDN'T CRY! ^O^

Anyway, I want to say thank you to so many people! Thanks to all those who wished me a happy birthday! Thank you Ann &Kaifeng for taking time celebrating with me and the awesome lunch and the many polaroid photos! ^O^ Thankyou Shixiang and Shijun for the pants and the awesome shopping session that made me laugh like mad with all the sizes problem! Also thank you CG - Maggie, Rachel, Ruimin, Denyse, Martin &Yuwei for surprising me at Alexander IKEA! Although I stepped away for awhile for a phonecall but everything was oh-so-fun! Thankyou Yuwei for the MOST SURPRISING GIFT EVER ! ♥ Awesome brother C:

All in all guys, I had a blast and everything was super super awesome! I'm munching on Nutella cupcake now by the way! Maggie you should seriously open a dessert cafe. I 4D it! :D Alright I got to go and I hope y'all enjoy reading it. Don't worry people, I'm much stronger than you think I was. Cause right now, I have God, and my faith in him gets more and more and it really strengthens myself as well. I love God ♥♥♥