It's all in the matter of perspectives ♥


Hello my lovely readers!

The weather in Yewtee is really awesome, it's cooling. Yes, it's drizzling/raining on and off. IT's just so cooling. It's quite a change from the extreme heat these few days and the thunderstorm yesterday. Anyway, I managed to sleep in today. Had great time this weekend. Yes there's no work! Isn't it great! My first weekend without work! Felt quite relax then I don't have to rush down here and there. But I have been working like everyday last week for the weekdays. It's a well deserve rest!

Anyway, the weekend was packed with great services and sermon! It was almost a buffet of spiritual food! Dr Kim came to HoGC on Friday which I am unable to make it! Extremely disappointed cause I had work that day. But I managed to make it for Pastor Sy Roger's services on Saturday! Felt extremely well-fed spiritually and he talks so much about sexuality like homosexuals, dirty thoughts and even lust. It teaches us so many things. In life, we need to value God and also value others! Value = Love, don't use your cheap words to love others, show them how you value them.

My weekend was really great. Spent time with my families - HoGC and Biologically family. But all at the same time, I was worried about school starting. Yes I saw my timetable - Only had to attend school for 4days in a week for August and September. &I was like woah, the timetable is all screwed up! Thinking back, I seriously blamed my computer for all it caused. Such that I am unable to get into the same classes as my friends cause it's slowwww. Super sadded. Ugh! But anyway, I still get to see some and all, so it's not really too bad I guess. HAHAHAHA.

Oh yes, I know when y'all read this post, you'll be wondering about how I would be feeling, like maybe I'll write an update or a follow up on how I am feeling now. Well, I think I'm feeling better I guess. I had no idea why I would feel so uncomfortable. This emotional feeling has made my temper all mixed up as well. I don't understand why either. I hadn't been smiling other than the times that are needed during work, if i'm talking to anyone or even if I'm thinking of anything, I'll just had my stoned face up. I don't know why. Sigh, I just wish I could forget all of this. Jordin told me - do you think you can forgive without forgetting it or the other way round. At the vert beginning I thought yes. You know, me being me, stubborn at times, I insisted that I have already forgiven everything but when it all goes down, I realize, from this week's sermon and alot of pondering and thinking back, that the fact was I can't forgive whatever that has happened.

I kept feeling self-doubt, lost, insecure and others. I know, that even though I receive more love from my friends, from my church family, it still couldn't make up for the loss. It's a different kind of love that I have receive. Of course, I'm thankful for their love. &it's not that I'm craving for that kind of love. It's just, I don't know. I couldn't believe it? HAHAHAHAHA. Enough of this talk, it will never end and I don't know what to conclude at the end. But always, knowing how much my dad loves me, and also how much more God loves me, I always feel better.

I need to stop feeling so pathetic.

Anyway, I just heard from Zoe that we could collect our SIM school card from now on. Honestly, if she didn't inform me, I wouldn't even know that we could collect it. So yeap I would be heading down to SIM soon, again. Oh school is starting for me! Like finally, exactly one week from now. I couldn't wait, the jibes are all coming up. I'm so worried that I couldn't do well but I must and will do well for my University. NANA, STARTING NEXT WEEK, YOU ARE GOING INTO NERD MOOD! Just the way I like! Alright, I need to head off now. Got some stuffs and letter to write! Will blog real soon, before school starts I promise! Xoxo!


Ps; I have cravings for Sticky sweets! Shall get them before school starts!