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Hello my lovely readers!

I know, I'm like blogging every alternative days now. It's not that I'm bored or anything. Maybe there's something inside of me that I want to get it off my chest, but I don't know how..? It's just so frustrating! But other than that, I kinda have a lot of things that I want to do. Can I just share here what is my dream? or maybe what are the things I want to try, no, the things I want to achieve, for a change, I want to achieve something in life to it's best.


(i) I want to do awesomely well in UOL &get a scholarship to London.
Yes I know it's a quite a shock? Cause honestly I have never thought of going overseas to study, never! I get homesick VERY easily and I sometimes still do cry at night cause I miss my family. But I reckon I would outgrow them. Let's just say, I want to leave Singapore for a change and go somewhere else, to see the world and meet other people. Don't get me wrong, i still love Singapore cause that's where all my families and friends are. But truly sometimes, I just want to run away.

(ii) I want a time trial of 200m which is lesser than 2 minutes.
Well, I had a time trial just not long ago. &cause it was my first time trial and I haven't been attending training for like super long. Like near 2 months? But wow, the first thing I did when I went back was to have a time trial. Not too cool man. But I was inspired and motivated to do really well. I didn't want to give up Dragonboat cause I really do enjoy all the times I had there. Be it rower or with the girls and guys. The time spent was always full of laughter. &I really love them lots, they inspired me to do my best and never give up.

It's really amazing when you learn something new from everything you do. Be it a renewal of lessons or learning something new altogether.

(iii) I want to be more than what I already am.
I'm sure most of the people who reads this blog already knows what happened to me, about my feelings for my ex. Just recently I know inside that I'm over him. Cause what else can I do, he's already attached. &I don't play nor do I do third party shit. I have pride. Amazingly, for my severely low self-esteem, I have quite a healthy size of ego. So.. I did what I do best, I suck the pain and learn lessons the hard ways.

Hardest = Most painful = Fastest

Well at least that was what I have learned from all these years. But there's bound to be a better way. Actually, let me elaborate, this method isn't, say, the worst method. The harder the pain, the spasm you feel in your heart will very quickly change your heart to numbness. Don't worry, the condition of your heart has nothing to do with how you feel. Anyway, the numbness will stay and it honestly allows you to at least do things in live. I had one painful incident two years back. Wow, that wasn't called living, that was literally a walking crying heart wrenching zombie. Every night you cry your eyeballs out from it's socket, everyday you wish, pray and hope for the same thing. The thought of whether is it worth it will definitely cross your mind. Don't bother, your mind can't think, anything at that point of time is worth it.

But yes, that was all over a long time ago. It's all gone in me now, yes I've let it go. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that. I am better than what I am. I am better than what my mind thinks of me, I aim to be a little better every single day. It's an achievement. Regardless of how small, you smile everyday, you don't lie, you don't keep secrets and you don't pity yourself and envy other people. All these are small achievements. &I am definitely better than that.

Alright, shall stop here must leave. Anyway, I've decided to get my camera this weekend instead of after Building Fund. I think it really motivates me to save EVERY single cent I have. Cause I am VERY BROKE. So.. I will curb. Anyway, love you readers, Ciao!


Ps; How many times will it take to get it right?